I hate humans.
I hate the world.
But what i hate the most is myself.

Even so, i need it (myself).
No matter how much i hate it,
I need it to solve the cause that made me hate those things.

But i m not doing this in order for me not to hate myself anymore.
I just wish to solve the problem that made me hate everything, but i don't have any intention to stop hating myself.

Because i am not hating myself for the sake of my hatred
I am hating myself as a way to control myself

So, i will never 'forget'...
So, i could keep my 'consciousness' on 'the surface'...
So, i won't allow myself to give up

17 Sept 2015