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The New Me

11/25/2008 0 Comments A+ a-

For long time i was imprisoned

In thick dark side of my self

The side which full of furious,

Revenge, loneliness, spitefullness,

Limitedness, Hatred….

To all over the world…..


Moreover , I hate myself

My self which full of dirtiness…..

My self which full of limitesness…

My self which full of deviate……

I never like my self

In my self that so contemptible

Only hatred,furious, loneliness…..

Sadness, furious, Spitefullness…..


But, now I know

I understand that…..


Nothing gonna change

Nothing usefull

If I still like that

Give up to the dark side of my self

At last…..

Only empty person

Only emptiness

Only failure

Spitefullness

That I would get


I have a dream

That’s why,

I would never let everything gonna shattered

Dissappear, crushed…..

Just because of my dark side

I would never entrusted mu future

Only for sink into darkness

I never again let it happen…..


I’ll promise to my self

I never let my darkness side back and

Control my self again


Now, is the time to prove

To other people

To my Illah

And To my self


I’ll get the success

I never be defeated and give up

to my dark side

Weakness

11/12/2008 0 Comments A+ a-


October 28,2008

The Way that I had chosen
The way of emptiness and loneliness
The way where I never know my purpose

Now, my purpose is lost
As if the happiness light at the edge
Was Lost, Gone, Disappear.....

The dream that I was craved had lost
The wish about future was disappear
Nothing purpose of life
Nothing meaning of life

More I step forward,
More I feel pleasure
More I feel freedom.....

But,
Loneliness more torture my heart
Never I feel happiness
Just emptiness and loneliness
coloring my days, every day
Only so much regret which haunt my day

More I go forward
More I afraid
With the darkness next in my way
More I feel alone
More my dream gone far away
More I feel crushed

The Promised that I had declared
Was crack,Almost broken......
I feel my self is contemptible
Contemptible in front of my Struggle friends
Contemptible in front of Justice
Contemptible in front of the earth
Contemptible in front of GOD

Little by little everything being crushed
Little by little everything gone
Become ruins......

Under the dark sky
Surrounded by the darkness air
I just be more dragged far away
to the depths of misery

Can't spread my wings
Cant Fly
Cant lighting the world

Just regret cry,
Just Fear and Darkness,
Just Selfishness,
Just contemptible Of myself
Left.........


ConfuseD

11/12/2008 0 Comments A+ a-



Friday, April 13, 2007

When everything was uncovering

When the truth had known

When the wish shining in front of my eyes.....


Then, Justification was asked

To be a consequence


Determination must be firmed up

For our struggle until now

in order not to be useless, neglected.....


Struggle was begun

Even though I feel myself is weak

Even though I feel hard to do.......


But,

Still I try to walk in this way

Still I try to convinced my self

That one day,

I can spread my wings

to the happiness star


Until I affirm my will

For This struggle

Try to keep walking

in this way..........


But,

Everything isn't easy to do

For this struggle

So much obstacles......

So much interferes..........


So many times

I fall....

I stumble.........

So many times also....

I try to awake

And Continue this struggle again......


I really fed up to my self

I really ashamed to all

How weak i am......

How fool......

How ashamed.....


I confused again......

Don't know more

What I must doing

I very afraid to step forward


But,

I also don't want to go back

What must I doing????


In order to awakeness of myself

To reach this dream....?????

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