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Friday, June 1, 2007

Why….???

Why even though whatever i have done

However i have tried

I can’t find the reason

Of me to always searching of something

I can’t understand what is something that i m looking for

I cant understand about everything

What I feel…..

Is only emptiness and loneliness

Why I must feel all of this feeling?

Why I must have this experience?

Why everything is look like a manipulated??

I don’t know

I don’t understand

I confuse abt everything….

I have eyes, but exactly make me blind

I have ear, but exactly make me deaf

Moreover, my feeling is also

Make everything be more blurred

The only i know is

Sadness, Hatred, Loneliness,

Annoyence, Emptiness, Jealously,

And The weakness of myself…….

Everything that i had make me defect

Make me lose into darkness

Snared into mud which full of darkness

That always pull me into that mud

Make me give up and surrender

And only accept whatever happen…..

Everything i had done make me more fast

Push me, Snared me more stronger

Second by second

I had being more burried, dropped

Into that darkness mud!!!

Will the shine come to me????!!!

Help me to break out from this darkness??

Tell me the answer ……

The Answer of all my question

Make me a power and faith

And Show me the meaning of all had happened